Siwon followed the other man up the stairs. Yesung’s fingers were sliding against his and he noticed it again. Yesung had very small hands, but they were nice, soft, delicate. He could still see Yesung under the cover of moonlight.
Siwon had to admit that he was interested in Yesung in a curiosity killed the cat kind of way. He was enchanted by the beauty and happiness that seemed to surround the other man. Yesung was small, fragile and so very interesting. Siwon loved the glare that was little more than a pout. He was very amused with Yesung actually.
It was fun watching Yesung all nervous and edgy. Siwon hadn’t enjoyed himself in such a long time. He had been rather bored locked up in his house with his private tutors. That’s why he’d agreed to Heechul’s little act. It was something to do and it had given him an excuse to go back to a real school. He was so tired of flirting with the same tutors every day.
He was glad that he’d come back. He was learning a lot about himself. For one, he had learned that Yesung had a weird effect on him. They’d been around each other for almost a month, had to be, with Hankyung and Heechul always together and with Ryeowook being the biggest…well, Siwon didn’t like to curse. He was mostly always alone and Yesung was mostly always alone. It was fate.
“What are you laughing at?” Yesung asked stopping and snatching his hand away.
Siwon hadn’t realized that he’d laughed out loud. He wanted to hit himself. He couldn’t have picked a better time to laugh. What had he been thinking? After that little scene with Ryeowook, laughing should have been impossible at least until Yesung felt better. He looked at Yesung fully ready to apologize, but that look.
He didn’t like the way Yesung looked at him. It was the look that said that Siwon was a bother, pointless, not worth a second. It bothered Siwon. He hated that look, hated the way Yesung had dismissed him, had judged him before he even got to know Siwon. And who was Siwon to deny Yesung what he wanted to believe?
“I asked why you were laughing.” Yesung repeated when Siwon didn’t answer right away.
Siwon shrugged. He reached forward and took Yesung’s hand in his. He did it because Yesung expected a conceited flirt. Siwon leaned forward twining his fingers with Yesung’s when the other man tried to pull away.
“You seemed very eager to take me to your room. I didn’t actually think you took my offer to help me out of my suit seriously. But, who am I to deny you what you clearly want?”
Siwon saw the disbelief in Yesung’s eyes. He saw the slight tinge of red and then Yesung had snatched his hand away. Siwon watched him walk away and smirked. What exactly was he doing? Even he didn’t know that. This wasn’t how he really was. But, as long as Yesung didn’t know that he saw no reason not to keep the act a little longer. It was fun.
Siwon groaned and sat up. He blinked.
“What is it? What time is it?” he asked running a hand through his hair. “What do you want?”
“You know what I want. What were you doing with Yesung?”
Siwon blinked. Ryeowook was standing by his bed looking down at him. Siwon frowned and stretched. He was enjoying the fact that Ryeowook looked ready to explode and he didn’t really feel like explaining.
“I don’t think that concerns you.” He said throwing off the covers and swinging his legs over the side of the bed.
He was in Heechul’s room since Heechul had never come back from Hankyung’s room and they hadn’t gone home. Siwon hadn’t been given a room yet. There was space available, but he had to wait, so in the meantime he slept over at Heechul’s house or here when Heechul went to Hankyung.
“I don’t like you.” Ryeowook said echoing words that Siwon had heard before. “And it is my business because that’s my boyfriend.”
Siwon laughed. “Boyfriend? Some boyfriend you are to have girls hanging off of you and leaving your boyfriend all alone. But, it’s okay. I took very good care of him yesterday.”
“I’m warning you Siwon.” Ryeowook said shaking with anger. “Don’t touch him. He’s mine.”
“Yours? Ryeowook are you really this heartless or are you just stupid? How can you even say that? Do you know that he loves you? That what you’re doing to him is killing him inside? Are you really that blind? I can tell and you’ve known him longer than I have.”
Siwon watched the blank look on Ryeowook’s face and told himself that it was just because Ryeowook was surprised, because he hadn’t realized the truth sooner. But, what Ryeowook said next erased everything that Siwon was thinking.
“Doesn’t everyone get tired of telling me that? Like I don’t know that he loves me. Like I don’t know what I’m doing. I do know. I know what it does to him. I know.”
“You know?” Siwon asked not believing what he was hearing.
“I know.” Ryeowook said leaning against the wall. “I know and I don’t really care. He should have been more careful when he started complaining. I’m Ryeowook. I get what I want. I don’t bend or change for anyone. If he doesn’t like me the way I am then I don’t really see why I should have to put up with him. And before you ask, I’m not letting him go. He’s mine until I say he can go. And if you ever go near him again, I’m going to—“
“You’re going to what?” Siwon asked towering over Ryeowook.
He was disgusted in a way he couldn’t even describe. Ryeowook was one unique piece of work. He couldn’t see how Heechul and Donghae put up with him. He assumed that this Ryeowook was not the same that his friend’s knew. And if he was, Siwon supposed that there was a difference in the way Ryeowook treated his friends and boyfriend.
Still, that didn’t stop Siwon from disliking the smaller shorter man. He wanted more than anything to put his fist through Ryeowook’s smug face.
“What?” Ryeowook said reading his mind. “You want to hit me? Do it. I’m not letting you have Yesung. Not until I’ve had my fun.”
“You’re not worth the effort it would take to hit you.” Siwon spat. “Get out. I don’t want to look at you right now. You really are…just go. I can’t look at you and stay calm.”
“Very few people can do that Siwon-sshi.” Ryeowook said leaning forward as if to whisper a secret. “I’m irresistible. If you ever feel lonely or if Yesung isn’t enough for you once I’m done with him, you know where to find me.”
Siwon just gaped after Ryeowook. He seriously considered throwing his manners out the window and going to pound Ryeowook’s face into the carpet. How had someone as innocent as Yesung, or well as nice…as…how had Yesung ended up with Ryeowook?
“Yesung hyung.” Siwon called fully intending to tell Yesung about his conversation with Ryeowook.
But, he never made it. Heechul latched on to his hand and dragged him into one the empty classrooms. Heechul looked troubled, sad almost.
“What is it?” Siwon asked his friend.
Siwon raised an eyebrow. It wasn’t the first time Heechul had asked him to do that. As a matter of fact, he and Heechul had learned a lot of their tricks together, but it had always been for experimental purposes. He had never heard Heechul use that tone of voice before.
“You heard me.” Heechul said moving closer. “Kiss me and hurry up. I have to go meet Hankyung in ten minutes.”
“Okay Heechul hyung, I think you’ve finally gone crazy.” Siwon said moving away. “Did you forget that you’re in love—“
“I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM!”
Siwon felt his eyes widen. He looked at Heechul and it didn’t take him long to figure out why the other man was acting like that. Heechul, Kim Heechul, was scared.
“He told you he loves you. He gave you the talk didn’t he?” Siwon asked happy for his friend even though Heechul looked like he wanted to throw up.
“And? What are you doing here? Go tell him you love him too.”
“I can’t.” Heechul said in a small scared voice. “What if he doesn’t really mean it? What if I don’t really love him? What if it’s all a mistake? What do I do?”
Siwon sighed. He saw no problem here. Heechul was obviously in love with Hankyung. He hadn’t stopped talking about him when he’d been away. All Siwon heard when they were on their small vacation was how Hankyung was this or how Hankyung said that or how great Hankyung looked when he did this or that. Heechul hadn’t once stopped thinking about the man.
If that wasn’t proof enough there was also that look Heechul got whenever he saw Hankyung. There were the looks they gave each other, the smile on Heechul’s face whenever Hankyung was remotely near, the way Heechul always unconsciously leaned toward Hankyung.
And it was obvious that Hankyung was in love with Heechul. How could anyone miss that? How could Heechul not see the way Hankyung looked at him, the way Hankyung watched over him, the way Hankyung loved him? What was so hard to see?
“You know you’re being stupid right?” Siwon asked even as he moved to do what his friend wanted.
“I know, but I need to know. I need to know what it’s like to be held by someone who doesn’t feel anything for me. I need to know if he really does care.” Heechul said.
Siwon had to do it. He did it because he knew Heechul wouldn’t let it go if he didn’t do it. He knew that Heechul would find someone else if he didn’t do it and it was safer if Heechul tried with him rather than some stranger. He knew the faster Heechul got this out of his system, the faster he would go back to Hankyung. And Siwon knew that Hankyung deserved that, deserved to be happy.
“Remember to mess with my hair. He likes doing that a lot.” Heechul said his eyes softening.
Siwon shook his head. How could Heechul not realize that he was in love with Hankyung?
“Alright. Whatever you want hyung, but I’m not going to tell Hankyung hyung anything and if he tries to hit me I’m using you as my shield.”
Heechul glared at him, but Siwon just did what he was told. The kiss was messy and Heechul did most of the leading, but Siwon ran his fingers through the soft hair. It was weird. When they pulled apart neither of them could look at each other. Siwon opted for staring that the nice patterns on the ceiling. It certainly was much closer to him than the floor.
“Okay.” Heechul said. “I’m going to go now. I’ll see you later.”
Siwon nodded, but didn’t say anything. He waited until Heechul was gone before he ran out of the room. What was he doing? He didn’t need this.
He walked past hallway and ran into the others. Kyuhyun and Sungmin were to one side whispering to each other and Siwon had to smile. At least those two weren’t dumb and realized that they liked each other. But, then he saw Kyuhyun’s disappointed face as Eunhyuk pulled Sungmin over for a conversation.
He shook his head. Was everyone here really that blind? He watched Donghae who was watching Eunhyuk with a small smile on his face. At least there was someone who wasn’t afraid to admit that he was in love. He watched Ryeowook who moved to stand next to Yesung when Siwon caught his eye.
Siwon watched the annoyed look on Yesung’s face and couldn’t help his smug smiled.
“Yesung hyung!” He said smiling as he reached to put and arm around Yesung. “I haven’t seen you in a while. How are you? I missed you last night. Want to go have some more coffee later?”
Siwon didn’t miss the murderous look from Ryeowook, but he wasn’t interested. He liked the way Yesung’s eyes softened and he was glad he had helped. But that didn’t mean that he didn’t notice how everyone else was staring between Yesung, Ryeowook and him.
“I would love to go get coffee with you later.” Yesung answered.
Siwon was a little more than surprised when Yesung put an arm around his waist. He raised an eyebrow, but Yesung just started chatting away about his day. Siwon couldn’t do more than listen and watch transfixed as Yesung’s smile lit up his face.
What was happening to him? Where was the calm, cool, in control Siwon? And why was he suddenly wishing Yesung never stopped talking?
Siwon barely heard his name. He was concentrating so hard on Yesung’s face. He frowned when Yesung stopped talking and started to pull away.
“Where are you going?” Siwon asked.
Yesung smirked and Siwon remembered where he was. He looked up and saw everyone looking at them. He still had his arm around Yesung and Yesung had moved to lean against him. At first he thought that it was Ryeowook calling him, but Wookie was just watching them with a cold and calculating look on his face.
He knew he and Yesung were attracting attention from the rest of their group, but he hadn’t expected to see Heechul there. Had he really been staring that long at Yesung?
“I need to take back my boyfriend now.” Heechul said pulling on Siwon.
“Boyfriend?” Yesung asked frowning.
“No, not boyfriend—“ Siwon started.
“Yes, boyfriend. Siwon and I are going out.” Heechul said pulling Siwon down the hallway. “We’re going to be in here doing boyfriend stuff. I’ll talk to Hankyung later just keep him away please.”
Siwon gaped at Heechul. Boyfriend? What the hell was he talking about?
“What was that?” he asked when Heechul closed the door behind them.
“Shut up and kiss me. I need to know something. Don’t hold back.”
Siwon hadn’t even started to protest when Heechul attached himself to him. He fought to get Heechul off, but Heechul had a very strong grip on his hair. He gave in in the end. He gave in because it was always better to do what Heechul said. And because when he closed his eyes he saw Yesung.
“Hankyung.” Heechul said.
Siwon barely heard what happened next. All he could do was stand there.
Yesung? Had he seriously just thought about Yesung? Why was he thinking about Yesung?
He walked out in a daze. His thoughts were everywhere. What did he know about Yesung besides the fact that the other boy tended to be innocently blind? Or that Yesung’s laugh was nice and warm? Or that when Yesung was thinking he tended to tilt his head to the right? What else did he know?
He couldn’t possibly have a crush on Yesung?
That was ridiculous.
Choi Siwon had never crushed on anyone before. Choi Siwon did not date men. He hadn’t exactly dated many women either, but that was beyond the point. Choi Siwon did not like Yesung. Choi Siwon just flirted shamelessly with Yesung, because it was fun.
That was all.
He was having fun.
Choi Siwon was not crushing on Yesung.
He couldn’t be.
It was impossible.
A/N: I hope you guys like the chapter. Jann Jann LOOK IT'S YEWON =) <3333 And yes there we go guys. I hope you enjoy the chapter. hugs to you all and thanks again for all the support. Okay so I remembered what I was going to say. Yes this chapter and fics provides some explanations for stuff that happened in the Hanchul. So, I hope you guys enjoyed it and have fun my dears. Oh one more thing: ink_river10 updated her Hanchul fic Two for the Road. Click right here to read it.